What the hell is wrong with me?

I can't sleep normal hours. The past week or so I've been staying up all night, unable to sleep, then I fall asleep around 3, and wake up at 7, and am up again. Yesterday i fell asleep at 2ish, and just woke up at 5 am. This is getting to be ridiculus. I'm not eating, either. The only thing I've really eaten in the past 24 hours is half of a carton of hash browns from BK. I have a shit-ton of food here, but I have no energy to cook it.

Ugh.

Orzo with Cream cheese

Half pack orzo, 1 can chicken broth, small amount of cream cheese, salt, pepper, cayenne, basil (?)

Boil orzo with chicken broth (watch closely! Stir almost constantly.) until broth well absorbed. Put lid on pot, let steam cook orzo rest of the way. When done, add spices and cream cheese, stir well to combine. Can also add peas, carrots, chicken, ect.

Pet Peeves

H'okay, so. Last...morning, at like...4am, I couldn't sleep. Maybe it was the combination of the huge piece of pie I felt compelled to eat and the bottle of cream soda I just had to drink.

But anyway.

I started a list of my pet peeves. Don't know why.

> Children talking about sex/drugs/swearing/and generally misbehaving in a bad way. (Well. Misbehaving by doing these things, you see. Not doing normal...kid..misbehaving.) For example, I went to the mall the other day, and there where these kids there, about...12. Now. They're standing there, smoking, and every other word out of their mouth was "f***". I watched them, and felt the urge to walk over, rip the ciggarettes out of their mouths, smack them all repetedly on the back of the head and give them each a power ranger to play with. But. I refrained, and just shook my head sadly.

> Privialged kids who act "ghetto". I just find this offensive and obnoxious.

> The cultural acceptance of speaking as if you have never been educated a day in your life. Now. I know someplaces have really bad education systems, and, in effect, there are some people who really are worse off in this regard. But. Please tell me why people who went to perfectly acceptable English classes, same as myself, but feel the urge to use double negatives and string all the words in a sentance together?

>LOUD TEENAGE GIRLS. They make my work life hell.

>Men who hit on girls half their age or younger. Its just creepy. Plus...if he has to hit on a girl half his age to get a date, there must be something wrong with him cause none of the women his age will date him.

>Useless people. that is, people who sit around and do nothing. They don't work, go to class, ect. Or if they do, they just stand there or sit there blankly.

>Calling alcholism a disease. I've got my own demons with alchololism. 'Nuff said.

>Being ignored. Hi, if I'm talking to you, please at least respond back, k?

>Dishes. I hate doing dishes. 'Nuff said.

>Snobs.

>My hair. It doesn't do what I want it to do 90% of the time.

>People who can eat anything and everything and not gain a single. damn. pound. I hate you.

>Excema. You make my feet dry and itchy, and I hate you.

Thats it for now. I'm sure this list will grow.

Introduction

Okay, so I guess I should introduce myself.

Hi. My name is Allie. This is me:



I have a boyfriend/fiance(e?). His name is Anthony, and he lets me braid his long, lucious hair. He is a teacher in Georgia, and he makes me giddy as a schoolgirl. I'd post a photo of us, but I don't feel like opening photoshop yet again and resizing a picture. Plus then I'd agonize about how fat I look, ect, ect.

I am 20, and I live near Boston, Massachusetts. I grew up in Pennsylvania, in a place that is half farmland, half city. Its very nice. I grew up horseback riding, but had to give it up when I was in my early teens because of allergies. I still love it, though, and still take to the trails when I can. I'm a freak: I love show jumping. There's something about being airborn while on a horse that really gets the blood pumpin'. I've survived ornery horses who like to kick, bite, and fight, horses who like to spook at the waving of a blade of grass, and horses who like to stop dead after a jump. I've flown over the neck of a horse more times then I can count, and I've simply fallen asleep in the saddle and slid right off.

I'm a history major/photo minor. Most of my photos for school are film. I absolutly love developing and printing film. Its thereputic. Unless there are creepy men who stare at you and get all nosey with you. Then, the therepy of it is slightly disturbed. But man. Stick me on a horse ranch with a darkroom, and I'll be the happiest girl ever.

I live five minutes away from the beach, five minutes away from the forest, and 45 minutes away from one of the greatest and most beautiful cities in the world. I'm lucky.

I work at a store that sells all kinds of goodies for your body. I won't name the name because...well, thats just not safe anymore. But it provides me with many a hilarious moments and many a "What the hell?" moments.

I've got a normally dysfuntional family. They are crazy and I wouldn't take them any other way. But hey, I'm crazy too. So it works.

That's me in a nutshell. :D

Oh, and I love to cook and bake. I'll post recipies occasionally, mostly to remind myself of what I did. But hey. Feel free to try 'em. :D

Photos

Here are some of the photos I've taken over the past few months.









I don't know why this one got so blurry. It doesn't look blurry in photoshop. Siiiiiiigh.

Never said I'm rational.

Horse poop? No problem, I can handle it. I can muck out a stall with the best of 'em.

Cow poop? Doesn't bother me! Hell, I actually...kind of like the smell! (Reminds me of farms.)

Dissecting cats, sheeps brains, pig hearts? Hot damn, is it Christmas?!

But giving birth? The mere thought? Reduces me to hyperventilation and tears.

Cream Cheese Frosting

This is the best frosting ever. Period. End of story. It goes best with savory kind of cakes and pies, like pumpkin, zucchini, carrot, ect. If you tone it down by adding something acidic like lemon or raspberry its a little better with sweet things.

Unless you want to leave it as it is and eat it with regular sweet cakes, thats fine too. Whatever floats your boat.

Cream Cheese Frosting:
1 bar cream cheese, preferrably philadelphia. Not just out of the fridge but not room temp. Let it soften a little.
1 stick butter, softened for 10 seconds in the microwave.
1 box 10x confectionary sugar. (the 1 pound box).
1 capful vanilla extract.

Cream the butter, cream cheese, and vanilla together. Slowly (I did it about a fifth of the box at a time) add in the entire box of sugar, mixing well each round. Mix until creamy. Use immediatly, or freeze.

You can try adding in different things. I have used a little raspberry jam in before, and its phenomenal on lemon cake.